As I type this, my eyes have narrowed into slits and I can only see the subject bar of my blog. Reason? Maybe you got it right.I have been crying since nearly two hours now because of my accountancy board examination.
Accountancy is the most dreaded subject for commerce students usually (exempt those who can do three digit calculations before you can say Jack Robinson) . Throughout the year I worked as hard as I could in accountancy. Solved many sample papers, memorized the theory, tried to get my concepts clear, but as realization dawns, everything seems worthless now. The damage has been done, beyond redemption.
Though, I cannot blame myself for it. When you get a wrong 8 marker, your confidence does shake and has an impact on your rest of the paper. But what I fear is the fact that I will be answerable to numerous people who have been my pillars of strength throughout the year. My dad, who took a 4 day off before my accountancy paper. My teacher, who constantly believed in me. I feel sad to have let all of them down.
This is for the smart souls, who are probably going to key in my roll number to get my result, probably even before me. Don't judge a persons Intelligence by his/her report card. 3 Hours judge NOTHING. Don't try to elevate yourself and derive sadistic pleasure from some other persons's result. Learn to be sensitive, learn to empathize.
I am also pursuing my career in this field, I am in last year of my B.Com and I hate accounts :( I also feel the same, sometimes the thing which didn't go accordingly hurt more to see our loved ones unhappy about it, and a 3 hours exam is doesn't decides your fate, we should always be happy and keep trying :D keep posting more.
ReplyDeleteHi Nupur, don't worry ..everything will be fine...........I understand the pressure you feel, sadly i think all the pressure in the world is on top of 12th graders.....I can remember my situation six years back .but now I know better....dont be too hard on yourself...your loved ones will understand you and dont give a damn about those idiots.....
ReplyDeletekeep writing..you are great with words..........I think my comment is a little late but I am waiting for more of your posts... :-) be happy.......
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