It hurts

Stop making me feel guilty now,

Making me feel like I've committed a sin.

It doesn't affect me on the surface much,

But it does hurt deep within....

AWARD

YAY!! I won an award :D  

This is my second award on blogger and m super thrilled

It is said that Liebster blog award is started in Germany and is used to highlight budding blogs or rather another way to acknowledge that they have done a good job. This is awarded to upcoming bloggers by fellow bloggers. It’s for blogs with 200 or less followers and so is a way to spread a word about budding blogs and get them more readers.

Now its my time and here you go :

Rules: 
When you receive the award you must post 11 random facts about yourself.
Then you should answer 11 questions that the nominator has set for you.
Now it’s your turn to pass the award to 11 other deserving bloggers, linking them in your post and   ask them 11 questions.     
You are not allowed to nominate back the blog(s) who nominated you.
Visit their page and inform them about their nomination too.

11 things about me

1. I am absolutely in love with the colour purple! I think have of the world knows that by now :p well the domain name says it all!

2. I detest mangoes. No matter what, I won't eat them.

3. 

4. I love reading books because I love to step into other's shoes.

5. I haven't yet read Twilight/ Harry Potter or any other fantasy fiction. It bores me

6. My biggest fear is the fear of being mis-judged.

7. I have a certain affinity towards rain and sunsets scare me.

8. I wrote my first poem in class 3, it was about my sister.

9. I love experimenting with new restaurants.

10. I am a vegetarian :p and can't even stand the smell of non-veg.

11. I believe that a girl's beauty lies in her eyes.

And now through the questions...!!!

1. For you a perfect day means?

For me a perfect day is when I wake up around 7, read a really good book, watch roadies rerun and go out with my family in the evening for movie and dinner :)

2. Imagine you are writing a book, what will be the subject of your book?

At core my book will be a love story, but it will also deal with issues of growing up and self discovery

3.The best thing you did in your life?

Who am I to judge? :)

4.Something which you feel proud when you think of yourself?

I'm extremely proud of my military heritage and nomadic upbringing :D

5.Your favorite author and book?

Favorite book-Life is what you make it

Author- Vikram seth, Chetan Bhagat, Preeti Shenoy

6.What is the meaning of your name?

My name means anklet  :)

7.That moment you want to relive?
When I won my first inter school award :)

8. If you had to describe your current feeling with a song, which song would you chose?
Rockstar- Miley Cyrus

9. The best gift you received till date?
I cherish all the handmade gifts and card I have ever received :)

10. Something which you learnt recently
Confidence is the key.

11. If you were born again, who would you want to be?
My maths teacher :p kidding, I'd like to be reborn as myself cause I believe I'm very blessed :)

And now my questions!

1. What is your favorite color and why?
2. Who has been the biggest influence in your life?
3. Your biggest regret.
4. If you had 1 million dollars in your bank for a day, what would you splurge on?
5.Describe your dream date
6. One person with whom you wish you would have spent more time and why?
7. If you have just a week to live, what would you do?
8. What is the best compliment you have ever received?
9. One achievement you are proud of?
10. If you could go back in time, which historical event would you change?
11.  One person you are never gonna forget?

And the winners are!!!!
1. Antara Chakravorty
2. Alamelu Iyer
3. Shubhang Kumar
4. Ankit Rana

Congratulations :) and keep smiling

Relocation in process

Because apart from death and taxes, change is the only thing that is certain...

Tagged!

As I look into the rear view mirror, I realize that I have changed a lot since the last year. I have stepped out of my comfort zone and demolished my self erected boundaries which were created to identify myself, the real me.There was a phase in my life when I felt that I had completely lost my identity. But after 3 years of introspection I'm clear of who I am and my goals. I have managed to create my own individual identity. A good student, a poet, a deep thinker, a blogger. This is how the outside world identifies me but among all these tags how many know the real me? Can i extend their vision beyond these tags?
Let's admit it, we love being tagged. The kind of tags given to us by people we encounter in our daily life. An understanding friend, a good poet, a doting daughter. We associate ourselves with these tags so much, that in this process we feel our own identity fading away. Hardly anybody knows the emotional baggage the good poet carries, the true emotions of a daughter or the broken heart of am understanding friend. In retrospect I realize  that I HAD to lose myself in order to find myself, I had to fall to rise again.  I am changing everyday. I discover something about myself everyday which is beyond the tags I have been given by the world. I am creating my own identity which doesn't fit into someone's 'stature'. My past has sculpted my present, and my present is sculpting my future.
Don't just associate yourself with the tags the world gives you, discover things about you. Trust me, it's a wonderful journey :) jump in the wagon and enlighten the trip :)

Teardrops

Problems in any kind of relationship are like the rain. They can either destroy everything, or make the relationship stronger. Rain also plays a dual role. Here I draw a parallelism between rain and problems in relationships.

The sky thunders loud as the clouds approach
the heavens cry I can feel the rain
Teardrops settle on my skin
Insecurities creep in and I feel pain.

As dark clouds of doubt overshadow the sun
I feel cheated of a childhood dream
In the bludgeoning of chances fear leaps in
All I can do is shout and scream


Rain disturbs the placid lake
Devoid of movement and action
Our love was devoid of emotions or concern
Survived by white lies and passion

The dew drops as fragile as relationships
Trickle down the petals as they open
There is still some love that is left,
There are still some promises unbroken 

 -Nupur
(strictly fictional)