Hey girl, you are beautiful

It was a lazy Sunday afternoon and I was curled on my bed with a bowl of popcorns and watching roadies rerun (my idea of a perfect afternoon). Suddenly what caught my attention was a girl who wet her eyes saying that in her school years she thought she was ugly and suffered inferiority complex. This comment of hers shook my senses a bit and touched me deep inside. It was indeed hurting to a young girl in her 20’s with a pleasant personality and pretty smile to think she wasn’t beautiful.

This incident also took my mind back to another incident which happened not quite long back. Demi Lovato, the star of Camp rock had just entered the dusty road of stardom .She had recorded her debut album, landed up in her own show and given a superhit movie! A chain of events led her to rehabilitation centre. In her post rehabilitation interview stated that as a child she had a really unhealthy relationship with food and always had a complex about her weight and thought she wasn’t good looking. Her complex catapulted her from Hollywood to rehabilitation centre.

It often disturbs me deeply when girls get these issues about their weight or their face. Often they are convinced that they might not find the right type of guy cause they don’t look how they want to. They cut themselves, stop eating the right kind of food and sometimes even get into severe depression. A survey showed that 8/10 girls aren’t satisfies with the way the look and wouldn’t mind popping diet pills and going for a surgery.

So this is to all the girls out there who think they aren’t pretty. Even though your smile might not be Colgate or SFX material, there are a lot of people who can go to any lengths to evoke it. You might not have the perfect size zero figure but hey curves are in now!You are beautiful in your sweatpants and even without your face caked in make-up. You are truly beautiful, you just need the right person to recognize your beauty!

Down the memory lane - A letter to 13 year old me

Dear Nupur,
Life is like a omnibus of blind turns, you never know which turn it might take next. So live in the moment and be ready to accept whatever comes in you way. Life is definitely not going to be easy now. You will have a lot of pressure. Your parents will force you to take courier option of their choice, your friends will force you to take part in activities you might not really want to do and you will make many mistakes which you will later regret.

You will break hearts, probably many. Sometimes you will hurt the person who matters to you the most. So remember how you felt when someone broke yours. You will have your trust broken and sometimes your closest friends might do so. Don't trust anyone blindly and don't break anyone's trust.

Your parents will slowly stop understanding you now. They will become over-protective. They will stop you from doing certain things without  giving a reason. You will have sleepless nights. But remember, this is the age and never argue with your parents. Whatever they do, is for your own good.

And remember, be sincere about life not serious! This is a crucial time but don't lose your childhood in the process!
Have fun with your friends, take a lot of pictures, smile a lot. Cause every minute you spend in anger, you lose 60 seconds of your happiness :)

Fifteen year old Nupur

Its complicated

natural numbers->Integers->rational numbers-> polynomials->linear equation in one variable->linear equations in two variables->quadratic equation

The above order just made me realize how things get complicated as we grow up.

Sometimes its we who like to complicate stuff. 

In class one if i had a fight with my best friend, it would resolve within minutes and the next day we would forget what had happened and go back to being best friends again.

In class five if i had a fight with my best friend, It would take a couple of days for us to talk. And then we would go back to be best friends but still have that grudge in our mind.

And now in class tenth, If we fight, I would take weeks to resolve and even if we start talking we would be convinced that we cannot be best friends again.

WHAT IS THAT?

I have a theory which says every human being has glasses on their eyes which makes objects appear bigger than they are. I mean how does it matter if we talk or don't talk? Do i become the most depressed person on the earth? Why does someone have to cry if their love in not reciprocated? Does life end here? 

NO!

Then why do we always tend to think in the wrong way and complicate our lives? This obviously didn't happen when we were kids.Right? Why cant people be happy even if something in their life is not right? Why cant people see things as they are?

Growing up complicates stuff. It truly does. 

A new beginning

This December marks the end of 2011, and the beginning of a brand new year! Due to my optimistic view towards life, I have always considered endings to be a beginning for a new things.
Life is a omnibus of blind turns. And mine was changing gears at a stunning speed before it halted in the middle of nowhere and life took a neutral gear. Nothing much interesting is happening right now. My bus neither moves forward nor backward.




I really hope 2012 will set new goals, targets and adventures for me!
For those who didn't know, I'm turning fifteen on the third of January. No sooner i did realize that i was going to be a year older and a year wiser too! For me growing up doesn't simply mean getting freedom or adding more candles on the cake. Growing up is not only physical. You grow stronger emotionally and spiritually every new year!




2011 has indeed taught me a lot. Some of the facts i will cherish for the rest of life. It has taught me if you trust somebody a lot, they will simply walk over you. It has taught me to love yourself more than you love anyone else. It has taught me to keep certain things to yourself. It has taught me its not good to peak in others life's, It has taught me that we have to find our own definition of our lives. It has taught me how to be sincere and not serious.


The core of my blog will be that every new year, every new experience has something or the other to teach. Absorb inspiration from everything around you. Grow up to form a mature individual full of values and rich experiences.

(P.S: Don't forget to wish me on january 3rd :) )

10 things that make my day :)

1. Waking up and having open chilly cheese toast in breakfast with a glass of mango juice :).


2. Listening to all the good things that people say about me. Positiveness keeps me alive.

3. Watching rerun of roadies and an afternoon show of jane tu ya jane na!

4. Having a burger from McDonalds with a huge glass of pepsi.

5. Doing oil painting, doodling and sketching. I simply love art! Its a great stress booster.

6. Going out with my friends who make me laugh till my cheeks hurt.

7. Talking to an old friend over the phone where she tells me how much she misses me and we talk about the fun we had :)

8. Listening to my favorite songs on Youtube :) and thumb fight with my sister,

9. Shopping! Probably to westside, Levi's or Globus.

10. Playing an amazing prank with a friend!!!

A ray of hope

Unable are loved to die

For love is immortality

                                    Emily dickinson

“Promise me you will be there with me forever!”

“I promise.”

These were one of the few promises I made as a child. Promises with which I struggle to cope up with now. And when I had made this promise to my friend, I never knew it would hurt so much.

Not long back ago when I got to know that she had passed away, I was in a state of shock. My eyes became blood red and a lump developed in my throat as my mother narrated the incident. I had never lost a dear person before. Coping with the loss had to be hard, very hard. Especially when It was a promise of lifetime.

I lost her in an accident. She was travelling from a bus which unfortunately crashed into a truck. The sad part was she was the only one who died.

The grief wasn’t easy to overcome. Often I would sit under my comforters for hours sobbing the whole night. Sometimes I would dial her number and realize that she would never pick up the call. I would cry when I laughed at a joke and could not hear another laugh as loud as mine. I would see her picture and cry for hours wanting her to be there with me. My eyes become moist even today as I talk about her. Superlatives can define how grief struck I was, but what evokes terribly was the “Forever factor.”

Yesterday for a change, when I went to the sea-side. My gaze rested upon the sun which after spreading its radiance all around was retreating into isolation. That is when I realized that the sun comes up every day, spreads brightness and sets. But it never goes away. It marks every new day. The same way by friend had gone nowhere. It’s not just that I could not see her anymore nor could hear her laughter. But I could sense her presence. Every time I achieved something I could sense her patting my back, every time I cried, I could sense her wiping my tears.

My friend had gone away, giving me a ray of hope which will help me survive till my last day 

A tribute to the awesomest girl i know!!

What makes your day? Talking to a loved one? Getting complemented by a stranger?scoring good in a class test?or having fun time with friends?

Well, all of the above do certainly make me happy but i cannot say they make my day! What makes my day is talking to my best friend Tanmaya!
We live in different geographical coordinates. But that doesn't make a difference. does it?I still can call her at 12 and tell her how horrible my maths teacher is and tell her how much I miss her.
I can call her and ask her what to do with the friend who stabbed me on the back and she will give the best advice possible.
I don't have to tell her how sad I am because she can sense it from my voice.
I can make fun of her 'dracula teeth' and she can make fun of my height but we burst out into peals of laughter after that!
I don't wake up everyday and tell her that she is my best friend and how much she means to me because she already knows it :)
Sometimes i sit in the class and remember the fun we had together(facial, yas u :p) and i am punished by my chemistry teacher!
I miss every dam thing about her. Her hair, her smile, her society and the way i sprang into her house and helped myself with her lunch box :D
I love you a lot tanmaya! and life seems dull without you :(