Its ironical how nothing exciting or worth mentioning is going on in my life right now contrary to what has been on my mind lately. Life has changed gears at a stunning speed, I have transformed from a starry eyed teenage lass to somebody I am yet to come in terms with. But the one change that has been the most fascinating one, is the transfer of the decision making authority from the head to the heart.
Being a wallflower in my initial years of school, my mind had been the sole decision making authority right since the beginning. Desires were suppressed and the heart was consoled like a little kid who is refused his favorite candy. The 'excuse' would be "It will pay in the long run" or "Momentary pleasure are no fun, one should plan for the long run". Every time I stifled my desires, I would recollect the quote by the renowned poet Robert Frost "Miles to go before I sleep". Sadly enough, I wasn't introduced to any poet who wrote about living in the moment. If I would have been introduced to this philosophy a little earlier, probably I would now have had more memories, more friends to cherish and more photographs hung on my bedroom wall.
The reason why I call this change ;fascinating' is that I had never anticipated it or seen it coming. I often joke that If I would have met the present version of 'Me' two years ago I would have actually hated myself. Strange but true. I don't know how fruitful this change will be, I don't know what it will bring about, all I know now is that at least I will have memories to cling too.
My heartfelt gratitude to those people who have succeeded in altering my perception. The people who laugh their lungs out at the silliest of things, who live in the moment, who dance like carefree souls. You are the people who have understood the true essence of life, you know the reason of your existence and will continue to inspire the world even when your mortal souls exit the planet earth.
Nupur
Great post!
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