I am sorry for all the times I lost my temper,
For the times I was rude.
For all the gifts that were given,
And all the never received 'thank yous'

For all the love that was given,
And I haven't given back.
For all the times, you were patient,
A virtue that I lack.

I'm sorry for all the people,
To whom I was so cruel.
To all the people I laughed at,
I acted like a fool.

I'm sorry for all the times I lied,
For the people I hurt along the way.
Not a day goes by that I don't regret it,
And I'd take it any day.

I know that it is a little late,
My deeds can't be undone.
I now realize that I was wrong,
And I'm sorry everyone.

-Unknown

A year wiser, A year better.

The day started on an innocuous note. My grandmother woke me up at 5 in the morning to wish me so I had got just 3 hours of sleep. As I woke up groggily, my parents and sister started hugging and wishing  me rather unceremoniously! That is what I like about birthdays, people express their affection. Physically, and verbally.

Nothing worth mentioning happened till the noon, I was rather surprised that some of my closest friends had not called me yet. But constant phone calls and text messages from other people helped to wander away those thoughts. Even I forget birthdays! I reminded myself.

As I went to take a bath, my mother insisted that I should wear some 'good' clothes. Unsuspectingly I followed her advice and dressed up in blue pants and a black pull over. Standing in front of the mirror, running my fingers through my hair, I heard the doorbell ring. I opened the gate and was shocked to see some of my friends with a bunch of 17 balloons, a cake and gifts in their hands! I was too perplexed to say anything and just hugged all of them one by one. Suddenly my mom telling me to wear good clothes made sense. They had planned it all, together. And that was the beauty of it.

The best things in life come to you, when you don't have expectations. My 17th birthday may not have been my best birthday so far, but it did fulfill my life long dream of a surprise party :p There were a lot of unexpected people who called up to wish, and some people who did not. But that did not dampen my spirits or make me look back.For the first time, I was living in the moment. I understood the essence of the phrase and was cherishing every moment of the day and thanking God for making me a year older, and a year wiser.

Juding/love

Lately, I have been thinking about the parameters on which we evaluate or define a person. The most run-of-the mill answer would be goals, nature and conduct.

However, taking into consideration the dynamism of the surroundings we exist, the evaluation of a person on the basis of these objectives would not yield accurate result. But any alternative has not come into my knowledge as yet!

Those who know me would probably feel that I am being sanctimonious. But I would rather say that the prejudices or preconceived notions I have about some people are a result of past experiences. And a contributing factor in my accurate judgement has been understanding people on a different plane. My ability to judge and understand has been my privilege throughout!

Looking back, I wish I had spent more time loving people than trying to comprehend their behavior and actions. Though the intentions were pure, the repercussions were not in my favor.

Saying that, I would like to end this blog post to catch a little sleep. Which I believe is my prerogative today!

Nupur

Random quotes that touched my heart

Another award B)

Thank you so much Lubaina for the award :D means ALOT to me. This is my third award in 2 years of blogging, and I am thrilled :D

You are one of the finest bloggers and best artists I have come across on blogger :)

Liebster award exists only on the internet, and is given to bloggers by other bloggers. It has German origins – the word “liebster” has several definitions: dearest, sweetest, kindest, nicest, beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, welcome and the likes..

And now, I answer your questions

1) Describe yourself in 3 words.

Nutty, goofy and amiable

2) Your best home alone experience.

In my 17 years of existence, I haven't had a home alone experience yet :p :(

3) A perfect evening is..

Watching roadies auditions for hours :D with a cup of coffee followed by bhelpuri and lots of samosas :D

4)Think quick. Fish or fries.

Fish in the aquarium, fries on my plate. ( I don't want to explain the notions of my vegetarianism again yaar!)

5)Which place would you visit if you could go to any place in the world?

I would like to visit New York City to meet my 6 month old cousin brother :D :*

6) Winters or summers?

Winters B)

7) Reason for Q6?

I have seen winters after almost 2 years now :p

8)Is the concept of having a good handwriting over-rated?

Maybe, maybe not. Who cares? I have an above average handwriting :D

9)Comics or novels.

Both.

10) What is best part about being a blogger?

Getting good feedback from the most unexpected people/

Things I am going to miss about school

Lunch boxes, all shapes, sizes and colours. The smell of maa ke hath ka khana that would reach the teacher's nostrils before the food would reach my mouth.

The excitements rain brought. The darkening of the sky, jumping between puddles in the school compound, walking to school in ankle length water. Eternal bliss.

The way we waited for Reproduction chapter to be taught in class 8 and 10 despite having read the whole chapter line by line five times already ( the plant part excluded). Giggles and sheepish grins that were visible in every corner of the class when somebody asked a doubt.

Official bunking in the name of annual day, teacher's day etc. and the rehearsals for months just did not matter. We were always under prepared on the day of the performance.

The opportunity of wearing casuals on special occasions would involve 36 hours of decision making. (Am I overdressed? Or maybe under dressed?)

The punishment given to a large number of students just did not mean punishment, it meant fun! Standing outside the class and explaining the reason to every teacher/student that passed by. ( Is teacher ka to daily ka hai)

The school picnics in which the teachers would act crazier than the students. The candid conversations, truth and dare games and then returning to the same old teacher-student relationship the very next day.

The fact that school ends on a few months gives me jitters. It is a mixed feeling which cannot be put into words. The one quote that keeps me going is "Tomorrow always comes, and today is never yesterday".

Zero to infinity

Clouds of uncertainty loom large
Fear seeks abode in my soul
Energy draining down
Hope being sucked in a black hole

No time to turn around
Nothing to fall back on
This is a game of loss
Nothing is to be won

Two individuals drifting apart
Reunion beyond my ability
Lets embark on a new journey
From zero to infinity

-Nupur
(strictly fictional)